September 7, 2003

• well...life these past couple of days has been good and bad...remember daniel, my ex, well i dont hate him ne more, i hate dalton..me n daniel are gettin along like old times b4 the goin out happened...its weird. chris spent the night with alex from friday till today..we went to the drag races friday and yesterday. i went shoppin n got alot of new clothes that are cool...makes me think how much i love my mom and what she does for me i love you mom.  on the other hand with dalton..why do i still have feelings for him when he lies n says he is goin to afterskool and he didnt, when he said his mom wouldnt let him go to any games and he went, when he said he would talk to me after he got done with his HW but never said a word....and today on the net he was like "well dont talk to me i see how ur gonna be" "lol" and i said "well uve been ignoring me so i didnt say n e thing" and he goes "wats up" "gee i love you too"  and i said "nothing" " i kno u dont love me for a fact" and he said "just kidding" "nothing" and he signed off and warned me.....he doesnt care if we are friends, he acts like he does..well he cared a week ago but if i said i wasnt his friend today, i dont kno what would happen. ive never really had a mature bf i guess, i dunno. i wasnt meant to go out with guys i guess....gotta stick with my friends n thats it..well im gonna go and do pretty much nothin..peace out...here is a poem i wrote

  
  

  what if i wished we had never met

  
  

  never shared a fone call

  
  

  never said those things i said

  
  

  what if i wished we had never been

  
  

  never told those 3 words

  
  

  never said yes again

  
  

  if i woulda wished these things

  
  

  would they have come true

  
  

  or would i still be heartbroken

  
  

  and missing you

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