hey! wow i havent wrote in here in so long but no one came to visit my last entry so i figured i wouldnt write in here anytime soon but since my mom paid for premium i better use this thing right?! well school is great i dont really have any complaints and i had a GREAT day yesterday if ya wanna kno details ya gotta write me a comment....cya

Happy New Years.....late   AND i got my braces off yesterday n my teeth are pertay!!

its all my fault...everything always is

HEY!! life is great and i keep thinkin that as soon as i have a great day and write it in here, that tomorrow will be bad but i gotta think positive and trust in God and ill have a good day right...what is up with everyone else

tomoro is my partay!! im so happy cuz my gurls will be here and that will make it fun! o and i get a car but i mean....lol...we had a ballgame tomoro and WE WON so i think we have one more game then goin to state! WOW THATS AWESOME CUZ NOW THAT IM IN HS ITS COOL CUZ LAST TIME WE WENT TO STATE WAS IN 7 GRADE AND THAT WAS LIKE 2 YRS AGO......DANG WE ROCK..lol talk to yall later

my birthday party is supposed to be in 2 weeks and im thinkin about not having it..i figure what does it matter i will just let everyone hang out with their ONE and ONLY best friend and i can sit here eatin a big cake by myself.  Afterall it is my fault that i dropped the whole "best friend" thing last year. i have some friends that are like yea i dont do that anymore but they really do and i have one friend that on this questionaire thing last year i put i have no best friend and so she put another gurls name that they are like best friends now. my old best friend (lets call her friend number 1) has a new best friend which is kinda good cuz she wont complain to me all the time and my other friend (lets call her friend number 2) is doin somethin else with her best friend which i was kinda invited too but didnt go cuz my bro mentioned somethin bout the mall but we ended up not goin which is ok cuz it made me think n find out stuff ya kno and plus its not the same with 3 ppl instead of 2 im sure so they can have fun by theirselves. so im guessin why not drop the birthday party cuz ppl will hang with their friends instead of me cuz i feel like i cant invite one person without inviting their other and it sucks cuz shouldnt i be excited?! my mom said somethin today that i was like yea...while i started bein really good friends with friend number 2, friend number 1 was hangin out with another gurl which is now i guess her best friend or whatever. and while i was soo close with friend number 1, friend number two got to kno her best friend. and if i dont have a party...sorry to the guys that never really left me out n stuff...i mean dont get me wrong, my 2 good friends dont really leave me out, they just hang out with their other really good friends. i mean if my 2 good friends were hangin out with me all the time then their other friends would be feelin the same way i am right now so its fair its just not fun. its gettin worse tho i mean now they arent always there to talk too. i guess i feel friend number 1 is more like a sister and im not always the best friend to her i mean its definately not like last year cuz thats when i started hangin out with friend number 2 but now in HS they are hangin out with their best friends alot more which is cool i mean i cant have a prob with that cuz that would be really selfish its just maybe i shoulda never stopped bein best friends with friend number 1 its just we dont even have that much in common now and she gets on my nerves. but friend number 2...we have alot in common but it doesnt matter now. so back to the party..i have till wednesday to decide cuz thats when i will be passin out invitations and im probly second thinkin this right now cuz im kinda mad at some of my friends and maybe monday i wont feel this way..maybe i will we will just have to see.. i guess the moral of this story if if you are truly best friends then u probly always will be just dont go and try to be friends with someone else without knowin that they probly already have a best friend and that ur old best friend will find someone new.

omgosh AWESOME day...i thank God for it all!!

today has been good.  im goin out with someone now.  my horoscope said that today would be my lucky day...sooo...... why do i feel uncertain bout somethin...ah it will be alright. i hope everyones week is goin as smooth and great as mine...if ya need to talk tho, i am here

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this week has been great so far..aside from me being mad at someone who will remain nameless

i didnt go trick er treatin.i went to the game and the dance...the person i like hasnt been at school since monday and he wasnt at the dance or game so i ended up lookin at the guys i used to go out with...yall kno how that is, start lookin at the guys u used to have...yea, well, i saw the guy i used to really really like/love (watever the freak it was) and it seemed like he was avoiding me like he would go the opposite way..then, one of my 6 (now 7) grade "homiez" was really rude like usual, not notice that im alive or whatever like i would say "HEY!" and he would look at me like i was stupid..o well thats the price i have to pay to try to not be stuck up like some HS and actually pay attention to MS...if they dont want me to talk to them then i wont but dont come cryin to me when u need someone to talk too..yea well..i would see the kids on my hill and i was goin by and i was wishin i woulda stayed home passin out candy but i went to the game and the dance and tryed to have fun cuz sittin there worryin aint fun so i figured if i was stuck at the dance till about 11:30 that i would have fun so i tryed and pretty much did..lol have a great rest of the weekend